There have been so many changes in mom’s overall “being” since I arrived that I have decided to stay for another week. I realized that daily events with a constant flow of obstacles were actually showing me the decision was beyond a choice.
Last night after I cancelled my plane flight I felt an instant gush of relief. It has taken the last two weeks for both mom and I to find our way through this shifting between where we are and where we were. Many things need to be left behind.and I am trying to know what the next best place to be is. I don’t want the past to feel like baggage. I want to let go of the excess weight of trying to keep it alive in my terms – that’s not life’s design.