Once again I have been here in Kansas for longer than planned – new dramas have forced new solutions and now I feel like I can leave – at least for awhile.

This morning I will write-about-it first and then check in with mom to see how she is awakening into her day. Once again I have fallen into the habit of seeing how mom is doing and letting that determine how I am doing. I know this is all wrong but it pulls me in. It’s time for me to switch gears in my own life. It’s time to take the training wheels off of mom and see if she can ride without falling. Literally without falling!

The past week has shown a major recovery for mom from the mental collapse she was experiencing. She is relating much clearer but her overall motor skills and level of concentration have weakened. This seems to be the new area of re-evaluation for me. I don’t really know how to juggle her caregivers and that will most likely be my big concern when I am gone. She has also gotten too comfortable having me around every day. But, Hey! What’s a girl to do?

My plan is to leave on Tuesday afternoon.