The Original Star Still Shines Brightly
It all started with Lenora one year ago – giving mom her unconditional strength and love. She continues to be mom’s Star and for me she opened a door than has allowed mom to accept more and more help from others. Lenora is always there in mom’s Comfort Zone.
Home again and once again fine-tuning my definition of “home”. I find myself wanting to cherish every day I am here knowing that it probably won’t be long before I return to Kansas. That’s OK. I also cherish my time in Kansas because it has become another “home” for me. But, this time I’d just like to stay here in San Anselmo for more than a week — that, however, is usually mom’s “call”.
What’s left on the table now?
I’m taking a look at the last month – seeing the fires we put out, savoring our progress and wanting to then Sweep out the Ashes. Do I see a new direction or do I just need more time and practice with allowing the unfolding to move at it’s own pace? So many things have insisted on going there own way — endings that led to beginnings. The reoccurring question that gets the most hits is still “I don’t know!“ And I don’t — I remind myself that I am not the answer. Let it Be is proving to be the best response in most cases.
The Golden Girls
Mom needs more help. We have now stretched the limits of what Independent Living can provide and moving into Assisted Living seems to be in the near future. I have resistance and want to hold off as long as possible. Mom has grown to call her apartment Home but she needs to be in a place where her care is more immediately available. She has actually come to the point where she says to me, “I need more help”.
It’s great news having Anna back in our lives. She loves mom – it’s really a love-fest for all of us and such a comfort for me. Anna is now mom’s Hovering Angel and is loosely “on-call” until we can establish what the best schedule will be. There are apartments coming up for availability in the next two months and they are the ones I have been on a waiting list for. Maybe this is an invitation from the Unknown. “I don’t know” There are many other Assisted Living homes in the area and I have had little time to research what they have to offer. In my mother’s words “Time will tell”.