Saturday Afternoon The re-evaluations are not complete but a new picture is in the works. Mom is having a very hard time keeping her strength activated and I am witnessing a slow decline on most levels. I know she’s exhausted from her hospital stay and needs a lot of sleep. I’ve watched her push herself forward in the last three weeks like I have never seen before. I have continued to remind myself that she doesn’t know how to quit and how she has always surprised us all with her amazing rebounds. But, I feel like she is running out of stories to tell herself about what is happening to her and where she is going. She looks at me a lot lately with a kind of empty search in her eyes like I might be able to say something – answer her invading unknowns. I wonder what the words will be if I start to say “something” and I recall the many times I have overreacted with my own dramatic versions. For now I’m staying with the “I don’t know” version.
Sweet Dreams
Sunday I awakened to see a blanket of snow covering the ground but was grateful it would soon melt and allow me to drive. The day passed without much activity and most importantly with mom catching up on the sleep she needed. Lenora popped up at lunchtime and fueled mom with her special magic.
Tomorrow will be the day when the new rehab goals are provided and then we may have an idea of what’s next. I’m no longer feeling comfortable about a move to Long Term Care being the next best place for her to call home.
Through another series of crazy coincidences mom now has a wonderful new roommate and I would like for her to be able to stay in rehab for as long as Medicare and her insurance will allow.