March 31
is a family anniversary day for us but I didn’t remind mom when I saw her this morning. I did find myself thinking of how isolated and alone she was the day he died. Coming into Nassau on a cruise ship and left to deal with all of the affairs on her own. I don’t know how she managed but I guess that’s another secret of her strength.
Today I made myself stay home and rest all day. I finally realized how I needed help and didn’t want to be alone. These are not feelings I am familiar with. I surrounded myself with my many wonderful friends even though they are far away. My neighbor, Sue, has saved me with soup, company and quick visits to see mom. It’s so hard for mom to see me worn out but I think I will be back to normal by tomorrow.
Mom is feeling better about her new surroundings and that is a huge relief for me. She just needs more activity but I’m hoping that will come. The big plus is that Guy is coming on Friday and staying through Monday. The three of us have not been together since mom’s 90th birthday party.